Writing from a younger me

Lately my life hasn't Been Going so well, its like I'm really stuck in a place called hell. I keep losing people close to me like cousins,aunts, friends and other things.Im not the coolest person in the world I don't wear specs or shades, Shit I'm not not even that smart I don't get the best of grades. I Sit Back And think What's Gotten into me, I also think about the friends I had and the memories I made also the fact that I wished that those memories stayed in place but they didn't there moving on there becoming blurry....I just want to take a sec to stray form the story .I wanna take this time to remember my auntie, she passed away September 16, a day that ill never forget. since that day I've had a little regret. it was Sept.16 the day she died I didn't even get a chance to say goodbye, and I didn't want to..don't even take this time to put me to shame Cause I just need a min to explain. the feeling I felt when I found out she wasn't going to make it doesn't even compare to my worse rhyme, I just didn't want to see one of my favorite people lying at her worse time. I just wanted to remember the good ol' days the good times, jokes cracked and the games played. I got hit with the kind of newz that could drop a grown man where he standing ok now back to regularly scheduled programing.....My Life is shitty I'm stuck with my gonads and strife and what can I say except its my life.
~Da Kid Biggie~

~R.I.P Karen Watkins~

*(Drea)m Catcher*

Different shades of lights burn bright,

as she stands proudly.

He watches from the crowd

in amazement.

Grace engulfs her,

beauty unique.

Smile so amazing.

Not like most but still so similar.

Life emerges as the fradulent red peers through,

only to understand

the nature of the truth in a fictitious reality.

She steps so high.

Ultra violet conquers emotions

as they burn through souls like

hundreds of suns setting at once.

Love within music,

Notes intertwined with movement.

beats slide throughout her body,

with each twist and turn the lights become brighter.

Exciting the crowed as they stand in awe.

His comprehension of what is to be,

is that of a child in a willing society.

Wishing for attention.

Hearts racing, he approaches.

He opens his mouth to speak.

Nothing comes out.

Then

Blank.

life ends.

The dream catcher Replaces

his Thoughts with Reality.

Yet he lives Happily ever after.

From afar.

-CrisstopherB.amazing

Perfect Fraim

♥<3

Beauty unmatched as a

smile lights each day.

The same picture shown in different

lights and hues looks different at each glance.

Each time it seems to be as beautiful as the last.

Images unseen and unnoticed.

The red light begins to glow,

enticing the onlookers, catching the

attention of spectators beyond the crowd.

Unrecognizable and unattainable.

the thoughts at hand is the topic set aside,

The forbidden fruit.

The picture glows with this unseen light.

returning each day to see the picture.

Yearning for attention onlookers

stand only to be in awe, from the realization

purity exist. as time moves forward the frame

of time speaks. each word drenched in

confusion, temptation and life as the bight light beams.

Attraction sets in. Mirror images taking steps

as you do, each step farther it becomes.

the light dims and the life emerges.

the red overcome by white.

Resistance becomes harder and harder.

and the identity is revealed as reality set in,

The picture never changed the circumstances did.

Curved marks fill the air

The picture or the light?

time takes it's course and

the light will fade faster than the picture.

<3

Music<3

"The Love Of My Life."

My music is my best friend,

She never betrays me.

No matter what my problem is

she always has an answer.

When I need to cry she always has a tissue.

Right by My Side, with a Shoulder to lean on.

My music is my best friend,

Because she knows just how to cheer me up,

Closer than Most,

my music

goes everywhere with me.

She Knows the Best Jokes and the Best Stories.

My music knows how to party.

She Know how to get me started.

When I need inspirations I look to my music.

My music Sooths me andKeeps Me Calm.

She keeps Me Focused She's My Ritalin.

My music is my bubble;

it blocks the world,

and mutes The voices.

My music knows the best best places to escape.

My music is me and my music is everything.

Shes always there for me and She

keeps me sane and that’s why

My Music is my best friend.

Road Untaken

Road Untaken

As the bright lights beam,

Each day seem to last in the bank for

As long as the lights are on.

Out of sight, out of mind.

Florescent red lights connected

To a switch, on or off at will

Each day a new adventure,

moving threw existence with

The intentions only to Be.

Wishing I had more,

Doing what

Will get them to look at me.

She gets it, Beautiful smile

with a vulgar tone that seems

To be drenched in a stunning light.

It seems to be brighter than it actually is.

Communication is less than what’s expected,

Yet hopes and dreams for more.

Confusion on what’s to be seen

/by the naked eye.

Thinking of the future and what’s

in store.

love,Live,Life

Hearts<3♥

Pause (pt.2)

Pause pt.2

Seconds to minutes,

Minutes to seconds.

every moment slower than the last.

Thoughts and Dreams Caged,

Raging for freedom.

(Pause)

Time stands still.

Numbers intertwined,

with the incideous plots of the

Lectures to stop the clock.

The countdown envokes hope.

3.

2.

Then (Pause) with 1 second left,

and My Heart

Stops.

"The Missing Link"

The Missing Link

A Chain Is as Strong As Its Weakest Ling,

But What If a Link Falls Off?

September 16 The Chain Broke,

Ill Never Forget that DayThe Rust Gave way and

The Chain seperated.

The Docters said They Tired There Best To Keep It Together,

But Slowly And Surely It Started To Fade Away.

It Was The Strongest Link in The chain,

It's what kept us together.

Now the chain is falling apart,

loosing links here and there

Just The Memories Of What was.

Though some nights as i lay awake in the pits

of the nights Drifting off,

The chain becomes strong again.

Then falls apart

As i open my eyes

"You Can Talk"

"You Can Talk"

The way there eyes touch my skin is
equivalent to a thousand suns.
The tiny voices in the
background slowly agitate
me to a breaking point.

I get more and more intricate
with each silhouette put to paper,
yet there opinions stay the same.
No matter what I say they hear the same lyrics.
They judge me from a distance and then engrave
their opinions in my soul.

I am an ant to them they look down on me
with such a condescending tone they see
me as an emotionless Body.
They don't hold back,
because they think I'm numb.

Each word hits me like a
bullet I lose my breath
when they hit my chest
but then I proceed to walk.

Every ones entitled to their own
thoughts and beliefs, but only people
who play a part in the play of my life
have an honest opinion, so
you can talk.

"Boxed In"

Isolation

Dark Streets,

Quiet nights.

loss of communication,

Cut off from the world.

Voices silents,

Words fall upon deaf ears.

Falling short of approval,

grasping only disappointment.

Life isn't What it seems.

The lock on the door is so heavy.

No windows,

No lights,

No air.

Isolation.

[Outskies] *CrissB♪*

Individuality.

Individuality.

Who Are You,

If Anyone?

I Hear your voice,

But i see someone else.

Your not who you say you are.

A mirror to society, an exact replica.

Lazar vision burns as

they stand on mountain tops.

I Stand out, They Don't Understand Me

They don't accept me,

yet i still smile.

[Individuality is key]

[Outskies] *CrissB♪*

Ms.Whoeveryouare

"Ms.Whoeveryouare♥=]"

Dark Days, Cold Nights

with nothing to light the

path of life.

Nothing but the bright red light

in the distance.

It gets brighter as she moves closer.

she seems so different,

Features the same

yet more beautiful.

The red light isn't

as it used to be, almost as if it

were tainted with the blood of broken hearts.

I Can't see her as i once did,

As a different side of her breaks through.

A side more vulnerable.

Two steps forward one step back.

blindly stepping threw the maze of lights,

i just want to help guide you.

With each step into the

future the past becomes more blurry,

till it never existed

then her smile shines though.

:]

[Outskies] *CrissB♪*

"D.K.B"

"D.K.B"

Music's what I live,

Beats are in my veins.

Listen to the music,

you can hear the pain.

Not many friends I care about

or even true to me.

Everything's change,

not like how it used to be.

They don't even notice

or care what it do to me.

Soon ill be like I don't even care…

Truthfully.

Into The Darkness

Into the Past

Im Like a Plane In The Sky

Thats Destant To Crash.

[Outskies] *CrissB♪*

"Lets Talk"

"Let's Talk"

Communication is what he had,

we talked every day.

I Couldn't Wait

to see you or hear your voice.

We lost touch, we don't talk at all.

A hi and hello here and there,

but nothing more, and nothing less.

I try my best to sort through the

rest of the feelings I have, hoping

that I can find enough thoughts

and memories that would make me

care we don't talk but I can't

So off we go in separate directions

choosing different Decisions

in life never to cross again.

Walking alone,

but still craving that hi and hello

we once shared, and crumbling under

the fact that there's nothing there.

So alone we walk in these halls of

life with nothing but the comfort

and knowledge that we used to

share something and hope that can

hold us Until we meet again and shard

that hi and hello that we used to share.

So just walk until you see me

and you hear me say

"Lets Talk"

[Outskies] *CrissB♪*

"Murder"

"Murder"
Lurking in the shadows
plotting on your life.
I don't understand 
how they think or feel.
I Feel secure.
I Am who I am.
Nothings Wrong,
Life is Good.
Then They appear, 
From thin air as if they
where there the whole time.
Weapon in hand, 
The knife pierces my heart.
The pain surges threw
my veins, and
blood trickles down.
Thoughts Flowing Threw My Mind
As a Wave Of emotion
engulfs me.
It Feels as if My Life is
Crumbling Around Me.

As I Pull the Knife out of my chest 
I strike Back with infuriating Rage.
Anger Blinds Me.
I don't see the tears,
or hear the screams.
The pain throbs in my chest.
My life Flashes Before My Eyes.
The pain over comes me.
So much emotion then just
Numb.
I Drop To My Knees
The shadow returns
and Looks Me in the eye
But its like they Don't see
me at all.
I fall to the ground.
The shadow stands over me, and
the Picture of life Becomes
more blurry by the second,
Yet Before it Disappears
I Notice a  Familiar Face.

"Oh Woe Is Me"

"Oh Whoa Is Me"

Tears Streaming Down Slowly
Tapping My Keypad as I read
"Future's Not Lookin' Brite 4 us now"
Shattered to a Million Pieces.
The child within yearning for attention.
Our Past Slowly Suppressed.
Tip Toeing Around Always Staying On edge,
Avoiding
The "Red Light"
Planning Accordingly
Lucky Number Three
Our Past,
Our Present,
Our Future,
Crushed.
One Line, One Bar, One Stanza
Can Change It all.
Box Of emotion yet To Open.
"Oh Woe is me"
How Will I Live,
How Will I Survive,
How Will I Last.
ILL NEVER MAKE IT.
lol Just Kidding
It Was Fun While It Lasted
Right Jess LMAO

~Mr.Amazing~

"Alone"

Alone

On Lonely Nights I Start To Fade,
Her Loves a Thousand Miles Away.
Never Really Having Help
From The Brim Of Darkness.
Facing The Past Alone
Being Silent to others.
They don't realize, This is reality.
The Frivolous,
The Asinine,
The Meaningless
Mean so Much.
How Do You Live.
Careless.
Ignoring The Weak.
Emotionless, The Sea Is Still
Calm,
Cool,
Collected.
Ignoring Never
Fixes The Problem.
Dreams Still Strong,
Memories Still Here.
So Many People Around
Yet So Lonely.
Always In My Heart,
Soul And Mind.
Hoping For Just One More Second,
As The Tears Dry, The Memories
Become Stronger.
Just One More Second.
Just One More I Love You.
How Do They Live,
Careless
Their Wounds Heal.
Just One More Second.
Just One More I Love You.

[Outskies]
*CrissB♪*

Abandon

Abandon

One Last Meeting,

Our Last Words

"Good Bye, I Love You"

You Don't Really Care.

Our Finger intertwined

Slowly Come undone.

With Each footstep More

Pain.

Alone.

Disconnected.

With Each Passing Day,

I Grow Stronger.

Yet The Wounds Never Heal.

"How Could You",

"What Did i Do"

"Pause"

Let me breathe,
Give me a chance to think.
Slow motion
Time stands still.
"Say calm",
Assess The
Situation.
"I'm Calm",
Let me Breath.
Near sighted
Staring to the Future.
Each day hurts more than
the last.
Hearts Beat faster,
between numbers in
the countdown.
3
2
then Pause at 1.

"Helping Hand"

"Here To Help"

As The Clouds Roll in

The Sky Darkens.

The Rain Falls furiously.

Dead Silence,

All alone.

No one To Talk To.

isolated from the world.

Then He appears,

someone you love

someone that will

always help

a single

Ray of Sun

Shine Threw.

[Outskies]

*CrissB♪*

"Mrs. Amazing"

"Mrs. Amazing"

To Live and Breathe Intelligence

Grace & Elegance.

As "The Red" Light Beams,

Understanding

it, Is The Challenge.

Bright Lights,

and

Strong Magnets.

Literature Reflected off a mirror

of Intelligence.

Bright Dreams.

Living To Live,

Beauty unmatched.

Windows to life

Brighter Than the sun,

Good Friends,

Deep Souls and

Dark Shadows.

More To See, Stealth to

The World.

Links Broken, And Lost

Yet Curtain a Link will always

Be Here and id like to call That

Link Amazing.

[Outskies] *CrissB♪*

"Caity Baby" [lol]

"Caity"

Hottie With a
Naughty Body,
Probably One of the Cutest,
being ive seen.
Bright Smile,
Day n' Night
Are En-V-Us,
high above the sky
on a cloud she sits.
While the Red light
Flickers Then off.

"Live Life"

“Live Life”

Let Life Be,

As Is.

Altercations,

Abominations.

They Stand So much Taller,

Or so it seems.

Perfection is nonexistent,

Yet the mirage is so clear...

Listen close, you

Can hear the truth.

The slight pain,

Everyone has weakness.

"Don't Look Down"

"Don't Look Down"

High Above The Clouds,
At The Edge Of The World.
They Stand.
Hearts Racing,
Stomachs Fluttering.
Shes Afraid.
"Trust Me" He Whispers.
New Life Emerges.
They Live as one.
Minds Intertwined.
She Feels At Ease,
She Trusts Him.
They Take a Step,
And Fall In Love.

Jazzy

"Jazzy"

Dark days, lonely nights
wondering the abyss

No clue, Where to go
All alone,
people Come and go
never making a Scratch
or even a dent.
Bright Ora
in the distance
a mirror To society.
We Look,
The Same Yet Slightly
Different.
The "Red Light" Bright As Ever.
Reaching Not Knowing If you
Can Even Grasp it.
Thoughts flowing
fluently,Music slightly High
Day and night,
where Born to Breed and then
Were Born To die [lol]
anywhoo im Done.!!